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MY WORLD


Hehehe... yea... this blog is so cool... its Jie's idea that I start my own blog since I prefer writing to talking... yes... I think I really like this idea. So from now on I'll be blogging alot about my life and my tots. Its so cool....

Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.



Saturday, October 1, 2005

*why did Jie leave me behind....*

My eyes are so swollen and filled with tears!!! I'm in the midst of Jie's funeral wake. I wish I'm the one lying there in the coffin. I can't control my emotions... since the moment I heard of it... I've been crying and screaming for Jie not to leave me! I wonder if I should hate her for leaving me alone behind... the words of assurance that Jie has always given to me makes no sense now. I'm scared!!! Jie has been to one closest to me since young and the one who's always been there in my growing up years (esp when it hasn't been easy handling an autistic child... Jie was there without fail)! If only Jie could hear me speak now... I'll tell her how much I love her and how much she means to me (definately more than anyone else on planet earth). I'll tell her that I really appreciate her for bringing me up and never giving up on me even when my parents gave up on me. I'll tell Jie that I'll do my best to show her that her efforts on me were not in vain... I'll prove to dad & mum that I'm not as useless as they think I am. But its all too late now... Jie is gone and will never be with me again. Jie... I will always miss you and your hug and your words of encouragement.

@2:27 PM