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MY WORLD


Hehehe... yea... this blog is so cool... its Jie's idea that I start my own blog since I prefer writing to talking... yes... I think I really like this idea. So from now on I'll be blogging alot about my life and my tots. Its so cool....

Our greatest glory consists not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.



Sunday, March 9, 2008

*I've accepted it.*

I think I'm bouncing back pretty well. Not that I'm not sad or down... just that I've accepted the fact. When I first heard the news... I tried not to belief that it will happen... the night before mum flew off... I wished I was living in my dream... I wish it wasn't true at all. I still could not accept it. I cried myself to bed as usual and made a decision to retreat back to my own little world... for god knows how long. I just wondered why my life couldn't be like any other family... with parents to care for me and nag at me... with me facing the pressure of studies (like all other youths!) I woke up the next morning and again I cried. I just felt helpless and hopeless. I wished I could ask God all the 'WHYS'. And I did 'try' to ask God by surfing on the internet... haha. And to my most most most amazement -
Though my father and mother forsake me, the LORD will receive me. (Psalm 27:10)
I was shocked. I wondered if the verse means something else... or issit really literal?! I guess that was the point when reality sets in and I accepted everything that was happening. I felt different... thou I was sad and disappointed but I was greatly comforted. I made another decision... haha... the decision to get out of my own little world. Yes... I was at FF that afternoon and it was good. We watch a video and the part tat caught my attention was when the pastor shared about someone who tried to find the meaning in life through pleasure. And when he thot he had found it ... he learnt something about pleasure - the more you have it, the more you realise that it does not satisfy. This scene left a very deep tot in me... cos its so true... we chase after things and when we 'find' it... we realise it is not what will satisfy us. So what is the meaning in life... how will a person find satisfaction??? That will probably occupy my mind for the next few days... haha.

@2:12 PM